Sunday, September 02, 2007
Dear Michelle,
I dont feel happy recently. I used to laugh and smile a lot. Its as if I was still a lil kid during my secondary school time. But now, its totally different. And, I dont quite get it too. Not to mention my family or friends. I'll be very happy and excited over the slightest thing on earth. And the next moment I know is a sad face when I look into the mirror.
I seriously dont know why. I guess Ive almost everything I need or want. Maybe all these arent enough?
I need money badly cause I think maybe shopping helps a little. I simply need a job. But at the same time, I dont wanna get a job. The past experience was a really bad one. See, I dont know what I want now. I get pissed very easily and I think Im making the people around me feel very uncomfortable.
But no doubt, I still love myself and the people around me.
With much Love,
Michelle.
Oh crap, Im writing a letter to myself.
You'll never guess why.
Not because Im crazy.
But because,
I think the person I trust most is myself.
If you think those things I typed are crap, dont read it.
I know my blog is not password-protected now.
But that doesnt give people a reason to criticise or to bitch about.
I dont know, I just feel that Ive a lot of enemies.
And they're probably very happy to see me like this [:
Aha, Im alright.
And, Im not crazy.
i'll be your teddy bear, i'll be your clown. if you need me (:
2:07 AM
I dont feel happy recently. I used to laugh and smile a lot. Its as if I was still a lil kid during my secondary school time. But now, its totally different. And, I dont quite get it too. Not to mention my family or friends. I'll be very happy and excited over the slightest thing on earth. And the next moment I know is a sad face when I look into the mirror.
I seriously dont know why. I guess Ive almost everything I need or want. Maybe all these arent enough?
I need money badly cause I think maybe shopping helps a little. I simply need a job. But at the same time, I dont wanna get a job. The past experience was a really bad one. See, I dont know what I want now. I get pissed very easily and I think Im making the people around me feel very uncomfortable.
But no doubt, I still love myself and the people around me.
With much Love,
Michelle.
Oh crap, Im writing a letter to myself.
You'll never guess why.
Not because Im crazy.
But because,
I think the person I trust most is myself.
If you think those things I typed are crap, dont read it.
I know my blog is not password-protected now.
But that doesnt give people a reason to criticise or to bitch about.
I dont know, I just feel that Ive a lot of enemies.
And they're probably very happy to see me like this [:
Aha, Im alright.
And, Im not crazy.
i'll be your teddy bear, i'll be your clown. if you need me (:
2:07 AM
